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| What Am I?
I Wish I Was A Butterfly I'd Fly And Fly
Until It Was My Time To Die
It's Creeping In Again
I Know What I Really Am
No More Pretty, Purple,
Peaceful Butterfly
Simple Life
If I Were A Butterfly
I'd Fly And Fly
Until It Was My Time To Die
Its Creeping In Again
I Know What I Really Am
No More Pretty, Purple,
Peaceful Butterfly
Come See The Blood That's In My Bed
Come Hear The Things
That Nobody Talks About
Shut Up You Mouth
Shame On You Shame On Me
Look At Me
I Wish I Was A Honey Bee
Anything, Anything Other Than
The Things I Have Been
I Slip Out Of My Skin
So I Don't Have To Do It Again
But Just A Passing Thought
And Your Filth Is Seeping In
Come Scrub My Hands
They Won't Come Clean
Come Sit With Me
While The Walls Press In On Me
Shut Off That Light
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| ARIEL
If only you could know
The things I long to say
If only I could tell you
What i wish i could convey
It's in my every glance
My heart's an open book
You'd see it all at once
If only you would look
If only you could glimpse
The feeling that I feel
If only you would notice
What I'm dying to reveal
The dreams I can't declare
The needs I can't deny
You'd understand them all
If only you would try
All my secrets, you would learn them
All my longings, you’d return them
Then the silence would be broken
Not a word would need be spoken...
ERIC
What is it about her that's
So wonderfully and possibly familiar
Why do I feel dizzy in a way
I've only felt but once before
How come when she looks at me
It seems like time stops moving
Almost like the way it did
That day upon the shore!
But that voice
ARIEL
If only ears were true
If only for a while
ERIC
Ah, that voice!
ARIEL
If only you would notice
How I ache behind my smile
ERIC
Where’s that voice?
ARIEL
I guess you never will
I guess it doesn't show
But if i never find a way
To tell you so
Oh, what I would give
If only you could know...
SEBASTIAN
(spoken)
Bless you child. Tomorrow, the Prince will have his pick of any Princess in the land.
How can a little mermaid compete with that?
(sung)
If only i knew how
I'd make him see the light
If only it were up to me
This all would turn out right
And if I only could
I'd tell you what I'd do
I'd simply wave me claw
And make your dreams come true
And wouldn't that surprise you
If you only knew?
KING TRITON
How could she just suddenly
Completely disappear into thin water?
It's been two whole days
And I Don't know where she has gone!
ERIC
Oh, that voice!
KING TRITON
If only you could know
SEBASTIAN
If only I could help
ERIC
Where's that voice?
ARIEL
If only there were time
I know we'd kiss at last
ERIC
That voice!
KING TRITON
If only you'd come back
I'll change my ways
SEBASTIAN
Just one more day
For that kiss to come
ARIEL
But time keeps racing forward
And our moment's almost past
KING TRITON
I'll try to understand
ARIEL
It has to happen now
SEBASTIAN
I'd give my life up
To make it happen
KING TRITON
I'd give my timber low
I should have started listening
To you long ago
ERIC
How I wish that girl could
Have been this one
ARIEL
There's only one more day
Until I have to go
ERIC
If only...
ARIEL, SEBASTIAN, AND KING TRITON
Oh, what I would give
If only you could know
ERIC
And at the ball, what will accumb?
Maybe I'll find that voice
But I'll loose her...
ARIEL
If only...
SEBASTIAN
If only...
KING TRITON
If only... | | |
| “The best day of your life is the one on which you decide your life is
your own. No apologies or excuses. No one to lean on, rely on, or
blame. The gift is yours - it is an amazing journey - and you alone are
responsible for the quality of it. This is the day your life really
begins.”
-Bob Moawad
So this is what growing up feels like. When you start talking about your school, realizing that it is no longer your school. When you feel the pang of being totally responsible for yourself. When you mature spiritually enough to realize that it's time to move forward, forgive the people who hurt you, and forget that they ever hurt you. When you try dropping your bad habits and getting into better ones. When, for any amount of time, you feel totally selfless. When you start worrying about your next birthday. When trivial matters don't matter anymore. When you pack up your cherishables and stuff them into a closet, preparing to move into an even smaller closet called a "dorm room". When every memory of high school hits you in the chest and leaves you breathless; you cry from looking at pictures, listening to songs, or even thinking about your friends-the ones you take with you and unfortunately, the ones you leave behind. When you realize that you are not alone, no matter what your mind tries to convince you of otherwise.
The month of July: The anniversary of my dear and beloved brother and his wife, my birthday, my grandmother's birthday, and the day Ang went to be with the Lord. I cry for my brother's happiness, and I pray that God will bless them with a child, soon. I cry for another year gained in my life, because I know God has great things planned for me. I cry in memory of my grandmother. I miss what it felt like to be with her. I cry for Isaiah, because the hurt I feel missing Angie is nothing in comparison to what he feels and will feel everyday of his life. But I know God's plan for Isaiah is truly amazing, and I pray that God gives Isaiah the strength to work toward that future, carrying his mother's love with him.
The month of July: My last true month as a child. The last hurrah of the life I've had in Oneida.
Isa 58:11 says, "The Lord will guide you always; he will satisfy your
needs in a sun-scorched land, and will strengthen your frame. You will
be like a well-watered garden, like a spring whose waters never fail."
I truly believe there are great things in store for all of us. Today, let your garden be fruitful, let your waters flow forward and not back.
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| My hard work has finally paid off. *sighs*. In kindergarten I said I'd make it. In sixth grade, I said I'd make it. In ninth grade, I said I'd make it. And now I've made it. A GPA of 4.1905. Valedictorian. *sighs again*. I'm so happy.
My mother has cried several times today...and of course she's called everyone she knows to share her excitement with them. I guess this would be a good time to thank my mother for her infinite support. Without her, I don't think I would have come this far.
Special kudos to Beth. She has also tried very hard, and even if she's number eleven, she's still number one to me. I'm proud of you, sis.
I've been thinking about my valedictory speech. I really want to leave a lasting impression on my peers. I want to motivate them. I've got some ideas...I just want it to be as perfect as possible.
Exciting news. Fargo trip Feb. 15-18. Career Development Conference in Nashville April 13-15. Beach trip April 18?. Lots of things going on this semester. I just hope Cal. II isn't so stressful. Definitely don't need that.
Overall, I'm faring pretty well right now.
And hoping that I don't rip anymore jeans...*laughs*
<3
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